good saturday afternoon! =)

been a while huh? right... i've been more persistent on quitting this week. from my uncontrolled half pack a day to five a day. i think i'll just reduce the daily number till i don't even think about it anymore. which i haven't been. till i realise how long i haven't had a stick. but still... cravings are a lot less frequent now so that's a good thing =) i feel somewhat healthier too. maybe it's true that you look different when you smoke. hopefully i'll be smoker face no more.

had my first practical bike lesson and it was so fun! i'm so confident i could have skipped the second lesson if i hadn't come late... i better not be late tmr. feels good to ride. and i'm only on gear one! can't wait for tmr.

i still don't think i'm managing my finances very well. i go with the flow too easily maybe. maybe the trick is to be frugal when i'm alone so i can be carefree when i'm out with friends. ya think? i've stuck to my $20/day rule, which only applies to food and is inclusive of cigarettes. but it conveniently does not apply if, let's say, i'm out with friends. the budget just goes out the window coz i hate doing that to people. but i'd be more than glad if somebody does it to me. then again, with a colleague that has financial discipline comparable to mine, it's tough. i'm still surviving though =)

people have been trying to convince me to sign on to the military. and they're willing to put in the effort to try and get me a scholarship even. so i'm a little torn at the moment. on one hand there's something i've wanted to do since i was fifteen. and on the other there's the promise of financial freedom, starting from uni! i'm leaning towards my first option coz i always believed in doing what you love doing for a living. so the second option could just be a 6-year delay. i don't know if i'll be able to deal with that. i don't know if i should try. i'm keeping my options open. but i feel i should decide fast. i don't wanna be wasting other people's efforts when all they're doing is trying to help me. and at the back of my mind i wonder... what is their motive?

i've been thinking of getting active again. gym twice a week. run twice a week. beach once a week. rock climbing once in a while. i'll start this week.

it just hit me how tolerant and cool my parents are! my little brother bought this tshirt with a picture of a girl in the front. my mom says it's erotic and offensive. haha. couldn't stop smiling. and then later we're watching mtv asia and it feels like watching porn with my mom around. they let us do what we like even if they wouldn't do it themselves. i'm lucky to have them =)

tmr's a headache of a day. bike lessons, vinod's farewell. mothers' day dinner. gotta sort it out. chow.